*GRIEF Conversationals...STOP if you don't want to read on any further...***
I've been recently scrapping all about my heavy feelings of grief and loss...The sudden loss of my beloved husband,of 26 years,Ray...It has been 2 months since my beloved has passed away...I can't believe how quickly,seemingly,that time goes by...It's kinda weird...before Ray passed away...we used to always be talking about how quickly times just seems to go by...Days,weeks,months...Before you know it...a whole year has flown by...I think that is something that you notice as you get older...At least that was what Ray used to say...As life has perhaps slowed down a bit from the normal everyday...to the days of retirement & not working on a regular basis...And also,because I have been having so may health difficulties...When you are in constant pain...& trying to just navigate life...& trying to get back some semblance of remembering what life could be like...without all the pain,suffering & health issues that are in front of us...But we never took each other for granted...We were always there for each other...no matter the crisis...but now the days seem to go by ever...so slowly...That's why my grief is so difficult to bear...He was my constant companion in everything...He was my husband,my partner,my guardian angel,my healer,my best friend,my voice of strength & guidance,my safety & my security...He is to get all the credit for nursing me back to the health that I am at now...I know that is why I miss him so much...He was my EVERYTHING!!!!!!!!!!...
Recently...It was my 55th Birthday! on August 11th...The first one without my beloved Ray...I was so scared about being alone on my Birthday...how sad I would be...It would have been overwhelming & almost impossible to bear on my own...My family thought I wanted to be alone on my birthday because of the difficulty...I was like NO!!!!!!...So 2 days before my birthday,I spent the day with my Dad...Shopping & gathering groceries...It was so nice...He bought me a triple chocolate...gluten & dairy free birthday cake...It was so hard to find...I was determined that I was gonna celebrate my birthday the way I wanted to...on my terms & not all alone crying all day & night...I wanted to have cake,candles,ice cream,whipped cream & flowers...I bought the candles for the cake...They were really cool...The candle light...lit up the same color as the candle when lit...It was really neat!...made the cake & my birthday extra special...So I was determined to get some pics of the cake in question...That is what this layout is all about...My cool! candles & really Yummy! cake...With Gluten & Dairy restrictions...You never know how the food is gonna taste...but in this case it turned out great!...My brother & I were so surprised at how good the cake tasted...loaded with triple chocolate ice cream,whip & blueberries...We really enjoyed lighting up the candles & taking photos & laughing...Forgetting about my pain for just a few moments in time...was such a relief...but a fleeting one...
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*Photo : My Birthday Cake : Aug 2023
*Font I Used : For My Journaling : Paint Drops Regular
